Thirty-Five Years Old - Jay

Jay 35

He was sleeping in his wife’s bedroom again. That was part of the pact, that, and a vow that he would never travel abroad without her, that he would pay attention to her at parties, appreciate her more than he had been doing. He said yes to all her demands and thought that somehow they would not be exacted once she was over her spleen. He slept badly. He talked, shouted in his sleep and in the morning while being rebuked about it, he never inquired in case he might have said the other woman’s name. Her photo, the small snapshot of her, that he had kissed and licked so many times was in the woodshed along with the one letter that he had brought away out of the pile that he had left in her study for safety. It was the night of his thirty-fifth birthday, and they had parted but a week. He stood over his son’s bed telling himself that what he had done was the right thing. The little boy had one finger in his mouth and the other hand was splayed out like a doll’s.

‘It’s the hands that kill you, isn’t it?’ said his wife who had crept in to enjoy the moment of domesticity.